I have been in that place. Reflection is good. It's healthy in remembering how far you have come. I am sorry you are suffering. I haven't been with a man physically in a very long time, and I learned to live without it.

I am not going to sit here and advise you that you can live without it too, because I understand there is a real need, but it doesn't have to be the end for you. I learned to develop wonderful friendships with men over the years, and they have become more valuable than romps in the sack have proven to be. I do understand its different for men in that regard, but I know it can get better.

Chin up! ((((HUGS)))