No, you're not an idiot, and I can definitely relate to many of the aspects you mentioned. Being alone on my own is the best thing for me [at this stage] but being alone in public, my goodness, I'm constantly - and I mean constantly - going through all the coping strategies I know. It's awful. But sometimes I have a 'good' day so that's okay. You're not alone in your struggles sonjaward809, trust me. There's a good possibility you can work your way through, and even overcome these anxieties as well, so keep fighting and don't give up. You'll get there eventually, don't worry.