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Default Feb 02, 2018 at 01:28 AM
 
I’m so tired of this.

The triggers that happen and I loose myself in my own devises.

People make bad choices and poor decisions. They are silent as they gather themselves up and try to come to terms with what they did.

All is well right now but I’m hanging on and holding my breathe waiting for it to happen again.

Does it end? Does it finally get too much to deal with?

I lost time last Friday and bad things happened. It was too much and I went away.

It’s taken very much for me to try and feel like myself again.

I don’t know what to do with this.

He’s being good and making good choices for now.

Do I trust it and him?

I want to but I can’t.

I’ve found an Alanon group close and I’m going next Thursday night. It’s a promise to myself.

I have to say this.

His is anger and mine is numbness.

Is there a difference besides the safety of it for me?

I think it’s a good place for me to be next Thursday.

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