Hey, you don't have to feel ashamed about this. Would you blame a friend if they were harming themselves ?

Tbh I tend to hurt myself too, and I know this feeling of self-hate and wanting to punish yourself.. And i know how distressing it is, it breaks my heart to see that you are going through that too
It's not stupid to be open about the issue and seek out for help.. It's actually very brave of you (:

If you want someone to talk to, maybe you can talk to me ? I'll do my best to listen to you and to make you feel understood >-<

anyway, I'm sending you tons of love and wish things will get better for you
*hugs thightly*