I think you survived but you were probably talking to yourself with bad messages that you don't realize you learned to create in "self". From what you have shared your inner voice keeps chanting "I have to for THEM" and how "I need to deprive myself".

What I tried to do in my post for you was to lay out the inner conversations you have and how you can work towards being "kinder" to self instead of the way you often talk to yourself like that part of you that needs doesn't have a right to need. Now that you have gotten through last week, I hope you can revisit my post and think about how you can change your inner dialogue so that instead of doing for "THEM", you are maintaining your own boundaries about your feelings and that you even got through work because you "need" the income from that job and you are functioning through these challenges FOR YOU.