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Originally Posted by neutrino
Well, it happened again. Disappointed with myself, though I feel good/relieved about it at the same time (because I feel I deserve to be punished), which is strange. I sort of feel like I should punish myself even more but I won't. Not right now anyway.
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Wow, I'm sorry you are hurting so much right now. I'm sorry you felt the need to engage in SH again. It's a really slippery slope, once you start and experience that relief it's hard to stop. I cut off and on over the years, seems to happen when my inhibitions are lowered like you said, or when I am in such emotional pain that nothing is helping. I hope you can seek help before this becomes more of a pattern for you
