Does anyone else have a hard time distinguishing your PD symptoms from your real character traits? For example I know that I'm an introvert and that's okay and not something I want to change. Sometimes when I'm making plans with friends I realise that I'd rather be alone or quit the plans by lying and telling them I'm sick or some other BS. And I always wonder: Did I do it because I fear failing at conversation? Because I fear they don't like me anymore (for whatever reason)? Or am I just not up for company in general?
Oftentimes I just can't come up with an answer but I would like to know the difference. I'm fine with being a loner but I'd like to be a less avoidant loner.

Anyone?