So, it's thursday night, I was relaxing in my apartment when the doorbell rang. I live alone and I never open the door unless I'm expecting visitors. Since I'm feeling optimostic and am determined to get better I went ahead and opened. There was a woman collecting money for charity. I usually donate money on every occasion but this just overwhelmed me. I got really anxious and wanted her to leave. So I told her a bunch of lies (my go-to strategy) why I can't donate. She kept pushing and trying to persuade me and that really pissed me off. The only way to make her leave was to become more harsh than I'm used to being. But as soon as I closed the door I started beating myself up about why I couldn't just sign her stupid list. I ended up crying and harming myself. Has anyone else had a similar experience? What did you do? Is there any way to cope?