Im afraid he may kill himself because he was texting suicidal phrases and acting like he was insane. He cut himself before.

Sometimes I feel heartless and evil. I left him after lying him for almost two months.
I fell in love with another man but he is married and knows about my bf. Also I wasn't unfaithful. I just fell in love with someone who saved me and became my friend, who gave me good emotions, also sad but maybe if I never met him I never left my bf.
I know it could be pain number two but Im not thinking about it now because Im thinking about my current relationship.

Its just too hard to say- you know, I have been lying you all the time and now after our romantic evening Im leaving you.
I am guilty about it. About my lies. He was totally shocked I leave him. But I dont see other way out.