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Default Mar 17, 2018 at 02:55 PM
 
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Originally Posted by avlady View Post
I feel disgusting to myself every time i say or do something i wish i hadn't. My older sister i think sort of taught me this way of thinking, but i don't want to blame her, she just comes to mind every time it happens. She never allowed me to think or talk for myself, i had to remain quiet and act how she would in any and every situation. Not until 30 years later did i feel a bit of freedom from her was i able to address this problem. I ended up in psych wards several times fighting this feeling of trying not to be a pest to anyone!
What were your symptoms that put you in a psych ward?

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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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