Yes I would like to continue the conversation. I have an appointment Monday to see if the therapist I haven't seen in 2 years is willing to work with me. It's such a hassle trying to get help. The insurance companies don't want to cover any therapy that isn't for treating depression.
I read an article the other day about nietzsche's metamorphoses the camel the lion the child. It gave me hope. I was feeling like what was the point of going thru all the pain of trying to change. It took a whole lifetime to get to this point, do I want to spend the rest of my life trying to fix me??
The answer is yes! I want to live my life with childlike wonder and amazement and free of the past.