Today , the day before surgery (if i make it.. had to give sample late yesterday to see im sick or not )
If you can think of something to go wrong ..it has
Even trying just to sit and do nothing is wrong
The psychological fight im losing as well
I am down to a world of IFs
If the car goes
If the blood comes back ok
If i get the ok
If they take it all out
Even at this late date i can only see up to there.
And still in the background all i can hear is " there is nothing to worry about everybody does it. You will be fine"
I dont think they have had to face it
Most things i have heardhave been form men with enlarged prostrates . Not cancer at such a young age.
This has been a great help
Thankyou for the replies and advice .