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Apr 10, 2018 at 10:40 PM
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Originally Posted by ruby2011
When I'm by myself, I could talk normal. I'd ***** for a long time about some chicks who have it better than me. When I'm with other people, however, my chest gets tight and my throat constrict and I could hardly get a word out.
Something really bad happened to me several months ago. I worked at a fast food joint for 2.5 years. During the last several months of my employment there, I really looked up to my supervisor (the general manager). That made her mad so she called corporate and had them let me go. She didn't even wanna deal with me so she couldn't even let me go herself.
It's not fair because other people looks up to her and she reacts very positively. She just got mad when I did it. I asked her if it's bad to look up to people and she admitted that it's not bad and that it's actually good to look up to people.
I never understood what happened to me, espscially considering she used to like me and was was really nice to me. She eventually turned on me for a really bad reason. I woulda moved on if it were a legitimate reason, but it's not. Oh, and I'm not allowed in the store even as a customer.
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If you don't understand what happened to you, please look up your former posts where we all explained in detail why you were fired (stalking) and the emotional effects it had on your supervisor and how to move on.
It was a legitimate reason for her to fire you. You behaved inappropriately, the manager told you to change your behavior, told you to not come in when you weren't scheduled, etc., and you refused to obey those guidelines. Therefore you were fired. You were fired for not following directions and for stalking your supervisor in the process.
I am sorry that you feel so much anger towards your supervisor, but she did not do this to hurt you on purpose. You have to learn to respect boundaries, and you are learning that there are consequences to your actions.
I understand that you are angry. Your anger is misplaced though, as this supervisor did not treat you unjustly. You were given chances to change your behavior and you did not. Perhaps you are more angry with yourself for not obeying the directives given to you by management, which resulted in losing your job?
To answer your question, yes, emotional issues can affect us physically. But please stop trying to rewrite the history of what happened to you to make yourself the victim. You were not a victim in this situation. Continuing to try to rewrite the story only does you more harm. You need to deal with reality and learn and grow from it.
It saddens me that we revisit this every few months and just when it seems like you have accepted it and are learning, you regress to believing that you did nothing wrong.
Re-read your old threads to regain the clarity you had before.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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