You can only control it for so long or for as long as they will let you control it.
I share in your feelings to have desires of harming others.
Do you feel this way 24/7 or just at different times throughout the day?
I understand the feelings you have toward your pets too.
I had a little dog that I was very close to and one day when I was stressed about something I suddenly had an urge to rip her little legs off and throw her against the livingroom wall. As a child I did sometimes hurt animals too.
Not so much about ill will but, more along the lines of fascination and at times frustration as well. In kindergarten I snapped another kid's wrist. I liked it. Do you ever have feelings or thoughts like this?