Evil is very subjective. There are things I find evil that others would not, and I am sure there are things others find evil that I would not. It's really just a word at the end of the day, one we use to describe someone or something. I don't think you are evil at all. Some people have difficulty sharing their feelings and emotions, and just because someone may not seem like they care doesn't mean they don't. Are those people evil? Definitely not in my book.