I tried going to a therapist but it was a horrible experience. It felt like an interrogation. One personal question thrown at me after another, without any validation for what I was going through. I know not every therapist is like that. I have so much on My plate that organising another go appointment and referral feels like a big task. My outlet has become forums/threads and counselling helplines.
I had another experience this morning where he was just small talking with someone.. after that I just broke down and cried.. not because of what happened but because I realised that in a couple of days time I i know i won't even care about this women.. but it will be something else that's bothering me. Another comment. Another friend. Another setting where I feel inadequate. I carry around these feelings all day every day. Its exhausting. I'm wondering if I will ever adjust or if I'd be happier single and alone.