I applaud you for seeking out answers! Good on you!
I can tell you from my life that things I thought I had long since resolved sometimes pop back up. I used to picture it like—I had put the issue to rest, buried it in a lake long ago. Then the lady in the lake raised up again—so I wasn’t done with it.
I have since learned to ‘thank’ the lady in the lake…when she brings a previous issue up again it’s because now I can work on it.
So give yourself credit for looking your issue in the eye and trying to figure it out. Don’t be impatient with yourself, be kind to yourself, and know learning is a process.
Best of luck to you in your journey!