Hi

I am starting tro realise that an erotic terms I am a masochist, and that some of my past bad life decisions had masochistic underpinnings.

This makes me start to think if satisfying those needs in a controlled environment, ie. with my partner to an extent that suits both of us, is a way to get a better control of what happens at work ( I am often 'beaten up' by manipulative people and their followers) - and do I have a chance to get promoted to higher ranks, or is it a cul de sac.

When does the 'monster' grow our of proportions and when does it turn into a useful resource of energy?

Are there any CEOs and country leaders who are masochistic but somehow managed to harness the energy?