Hi shattered sanity. I am sorry you feel you are lacking in self control. For me self esteem is an important part of my ability to maintain an even course. This article has helped me a lot
https://psychcentral.com/lib/how-to-...r-self-esteem/

These articles may be of interest
https://blogs.psychcentral.com/adhd-...-self-control/

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/self-control