The thing is, I actually want to... do things I want to do
That's growth for me. However, I have a problem with a drive and encouragement
Some people in life have others to encourage their goals in life. I have no one, and with all the effort it would take I could use people to encourage each other in pursuing such goals.
Say you want to be a successful artist. You want people with a shared purpose to encourage each other in pursuing your goals
I have no friends to encourage me. One "friend" even discouraged me