My fantasy is joining a cult of asexual but highly romantic elderly men, all slightly old fashioned, wearing suits and ties almost all the time. When you join the cult, you gain abilities to transform your body to look as you like, as long as it matches the "cult style". Sometimes the men come together and have "an ultimate hug" experience where they kinda flow into each other and become one person.

Because of this strange fantasy, my fetishes are suits, beards, baldness and glasses, and each time I hear "You are now one of us" I feel weird, almost sexual sensations.

The problem is that there is nothing like that in the real world, thus I have to consider myself asexual unless one day I find this "mystical cult" or at least a person with similar fantasies to do some role playing or something like that