I'm at a convention. The for-fans-of-a-certain-TV-show kind.
It's FIVE DAYS!!! Five days of feeling like I don't fit in, of wandering around on my own during breaks, of hearing about how amazing this fandom is and how many friendships are formed while I, of course, have not made a single friend.

This fandom is quite big on "being a family" and "don't worry, you'll immediately make friends!" And it's so disheartening for the people who DON'T make any friends. And of course I feel like I am the biggest loser around for not meeting people at a convention that's supposed to make everyone feel included. But looking at it objectively, I can see I'm not the only one. There's more people on their own.

Also.... I did not buy a single photo op. So basically I am only here for the panels. and I WISH I could do photo's and have fun like everyone else, but I can't look at pictures of myself. And it's not like everyone else here is prettier than me. I'm not that blind. But I hate that I can't deal with... Myself, basically.