Hi all,

I don't know if this is the right forum to post this, but I've been battling a relapse with anorexia recently. Today I freaked out and had a lot more food than I'm comfortable with (just vegetables, but it was still over my calorie amount I normally allow myself), and now I feel like I'm on the verge of suicide. I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts separate from my eating disorder in general as well. I don't have any plans to actually kill myself, but I want to so bad, and I'm just so tired of trying to fight depression and anxiety and this ******* eating disorder. I don't know what to do anymore.