Hello Eabtrees: Thanks for sharing your story here on PC. I'm sorry you are in the midst of this most difficult circumstance. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

I believe this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the website to be of benefit. One other forum, here on PC, you may want to be aware of is the grief & loss forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/grief-loss/

Here are links to 4 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, that talk about the ACOA experience:

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...el-in-control/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...had-childhood/

My best wishes to you...