Hi there. I hope everyone is doing well.

My dysphoria has just been really bad as of late. I just feel so lonely. I don't know anyone who can relate to me, and my friends are great but they don't understand, you know? I guess it also has to do with the fact that there are communities out there, but for teenagers. I'm 26 so it's harder to find people who are nonbinary than it is for teenagers to find a community. So much has changed since I was in high school...I'm so happy for this new generation, but also a bit jealous, too. ^__^;; I went to a nonbinary group but I felt out of place. I'm trying to connect with another QTPOC (queer person of color) so hopefully that goes well.

Dysphoria is something I also think about when the topic of romance arises. I've only been in one relationship but that person made an effort to understand my gender identity (as they were confused, too). I'm planning on getting top surgery and I keep wondering, "Would they try to understand me? Would they want me with my future body?" I know that if they don't, they are not the right person for me. But it is something I still think about.

This was all over the place but I am just lonely, in the sense that I would love to have a community and a romantic partner who understood me. It would be nice to have those things.