[content note: mention of self harm, dissociation, and shame]
I think I self-harmed for the first time today (not sure if it's self harm because I was dissociating and didn't consciously think of doing it). I feel like I should bring it up with my counsellor, who I'll see later this week.
my counsellor's really understanding, but at the same time I feel really nervous and a tiny bit ashamed about it. idk what I'm afraid of--maybe I'm worried he'll be mad after all the work we've done so far? I was doing really well compared to when I first started seeing him too. don't really know how to bring this up...