I strongly encourage you to attend a NAMI support group. 10 years ago I was a wreck, an absolutely mess of anxiety and depression. I was delusional, and reeling from losses (deaths) I had experienced in my life.
For some reason I made myself attend a NAMI Connection group. When I gave my first check-in I was pretty amazed at how much weight lifted from my shoulders, just saying the words and being heard and validated.
I kept attending various NAMI groups and truly found amazing support in them. The groups are called "Connection" groups for a reason...people really do connect.
Last week I went to a NAMI volunteer dinner and sat with true friends. Wow, I thought...I'm so glad I went to that first support group, because look how much it helped my life.
Give it a try.