Been where you are...done that. You didn't mention what drugs so going to say rehab to make sure you detox safely. Physical complications may require professional interventions. Going it alone can not only be dangerous but the thought processes on drugs are very different from thinking while coming off drugs from the thinking drug free. A whole new world when drugs aren't shaping thought and reality. Why reinvent the wheel? Get help from people also going thru it and therefore understand & from people who are living drug free. Take the best care of yourself.....there are no brownie points for doing it the hard way.





UOTE=ramirorico;4440502]I am at a crossroads. I have to make the most important decision of my life. This decision will change my life once and for all.

Do I go to rehab again to try to get clean or ?

I refuse to live as a drug addict any longer. I must make a decision one way or another.

Before I got my current place I was homeless for 9 years. I have been a drug addict since the age of 12 and I am now 50 years old. I am simply tired of this life.

You addicts know exactly what I'm about. You say to yourself, "I don't want to get high today". But yet, there you go off to buy drugs. Then you consume the drugs and feel bad about it. It is a vicious cycle that I do not want to be a part of anymore.

This is not new for me. I have been contemplating the end for more than two decades. Now I am extremely serious. And so serious that I am scared.

In the past, when I thought about this I quickly laughed it off because I knew it was something that I could not do to myself.

I want to end my suffering. I want to stop being a drug addict.[/QUOTE]