I’ve worked in stressful management roles for many years. Work was the most important thing to me...
I didn’t realise I was hiding a lot of sadness, and deep rooted problems,until one day a gradual build up of feeling very strange and demotivated and very very exhausted..and I new I couldn’t carry on.
Via therapy I am realising I had a very neglectful childhood, dad was an alcoholic and mum very depressed. The realisation of being in that is tough..the fear I felt, the anxiety, the lack of care and guidance, the bullying at school because I wasn’t clean, I don’t blame my parents they had their reasons, I’m doing my best to come to terms with it all, it’s dificult and the outcome for me is that I now struggle a lot...
Writing it down helps...as I’m still coming to terms with it all...