I wish you the very best, Emily.
I am going to stick to recovery from compulsive/emotional eating, by way of a moderate food plan. Which will result in very slow weight loss, I know. But, for me, if I keep going down the diet route, I will most likely still be this weight, or this weight once again 5 years from now. And I'll still be as crazy inside my head with regards to food and diets. I'm aiming for a healthier body and a less squirrelly brain .
For me, diets are not the solution to why I overeat - although my disordered brain likes to hope they might be. Moderate eating is initially harder, because it doesn't have that instant gratification of quick weight loss...but I know it's the path I need to be pursuing for all around better health.