You sound like an amazingly strong person. I pray for you that you can get access to housing and the support and help you need. I have been undergoing ketamine treatments for a while now. I'm on my 20 th treatment and it has helped with the more severe symptoms of my treatment resistant depression. The suicidal thoughts are much less and I'm finally more active and able to engage with people. But I still have significant symptoms that are preventing me from fully functioning and being able to get back to work. Just like all medications ketamine results can vary from person to person. But there definitely are people that respond well and quickly and I pray that happens for you.