Wow! Thank you everyone! It's really great to read all of your posts--I am lucky to have my doc--and all of you too. I looked online and see that he still hasn't closed the file from my last appointment, so I think that I really gave him something to think about!! I think I know what that would be too--email messages I sent him immediately after the appointment. I told him something specific about life with my ex-husband. I'd never told anyone a couple of those things before. I don't know if I can actually *say* the words again since my first bad reaction in 2002. I hadn't emailed them before either. I wish I knew what he was thinking. I can probably imagine though.