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xmascarol
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Default Jul 13, 2018 at 09:57 AM
 
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Originally Posted by sadp8r View Post
NO NaMES BUT IM LOSING TWO DEAR CLOSE PC FRIENDS OF MINE ...AND FEEL HELPLESS....ONE IS ABOUT TO BE HOMELESS AND LIVES IN ANOTHER COUNTRY AND THE OTHER HAS SOMETHING ELSE PHYSICALLY THAT IT WONT BE FAIR FOR ME TO SHARE RIGHT NOW...BUT I CANT ACCEPT IT...I CAN ACCEPT LOSING PEOPLE SINCE MOM PASSED WHEN I WAS 10...I DONT CARE IF I LOSE MATERIAL THINGS FOR THEY CAN BE REPLACED ...BUT MY FRIENDS,MY MOM,MY GRANDMOTHER AND COUSINS ONE WHO TOOK HIS LIFE A COUPLE YEARS AGO...THO GOING THROUGH PERIODS OF DEPRESSION MYSELF I UNDERSTAND WHY HE DID IT ...BUT THEY CANT BE REPLACED..IM TRYING TO BE STRONG FOR BOTH MY PC FRIENDS AND IM SURE THERE ARE SO MANY OTHERS ON PC WHO ARE SUFFERING ...I WISH I CAN TAKE ALL THEIR SUFFERING AND PAIN AWAY AND TAKE IT ON MYSELF SO THEY CAN LIVE LIFE AND BE HAPPY...I NEEDED TO WRITE ABOUT THIS AS ITS BEEN GOING ON THE PAST FEW MONTHS ..IVE TRIED EVERYTHING I CAN TO HELP MY FRIEND ABOUT TO BE HOMELESS BUT IM JUSTB NOT SMART ENOUGH...I CARE FOR BOTH OF THEM AND ALSO ANOTHER PC FRIEND IS GOING THROUGH ALOT ALSO...IF I COULD WRITE TO ALL MEMBERS OF PC AND TRY TO RELIEVE THEIR HURTING IN SOME WAY I WOULD...
ALSO MY hEART GOES OUT TO ALL ON THIS FORUM AND ALL ON PC WHO HAS LOST SOMEONE ONE WAY OR ANOTHER...WHY CANT I ACCEPT IT...? HOW CAN I STOP SOMEONES ILLNESS ? SOMEONE ABOUT TO BE HOMELESS? HOW CAN I HELP MY FRIENDS?.....THANK YOU ALL FOR LETTING ME SHARE THIS ...
I know the feeling my mom past away on June 9th this year and I have had a very hard time handling it.Some days all I do is sit and cry it is just the way she wanted to die,she was 91 which was a good life but my dad passed away almost two years and ago and after that she didnt want to live anymore .Oh I have a dear friend matter of fact she is my best friend and doesnt want me to worry about her or nothing she even told me I worry to much well isnt worrying a big part of anxietes she says she has her husband ,like I feel like she is saying she doesnt need me you know what I mean? I do find that some people just dont want our help even though we love them for some reason they refuse our help.It can be so frustrating. You can talk to me anytime. I love all my friends and I want to help them all but some of them dont want my help I feel rejected and bad to because all I was trying to do is let them know that I care,
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