Well another Saturday is about over. Instead of cleaning this morning I went to a meeting with a speaker. It was alright. I didn't connect with anyone there. Went shopping after lunch. I decided to do that at the last minute. I'm glad that I did now that I don't have to go shopping tomorrow.

Feeling down now. I guess I just feel alone and unfulfilled. I'll be going on a one hour bike ride pretty soon and then I'll go out to eat instead of cooking tonight. It's been a good while since I've gone out to eat.

I've noticed today that there looks like there's going to be a party at the clubhouse tonight. The clubhouse is next to the pool. I hate it when they have those parties because it's painful for me watching people having a great time when I'm all alone. The parties are usually for kids. Plus I feel like I'm being looked at.