Welcome to PC.
Well, I've come to believe that polypharmacy is devastating to the fragile balance of the human brain, and that the long-term effects on individuals, not to mention society as a whole, won't be appreciated for perhaps another 20 years. Nevertheless, you're taking powerful chemicals that cannot and should not be stopped or tapered without medical supervision because the results can be catastrophic.
In the not-too-distant past, I took some comfort in being medicated, and the more medications I was prescribed, the more I believed that I was too ill to function without them. I took some odd pride in this which I find baffling and quite sad. I've really struggled with this concept but am finding solutions that work better for me.
I hope you continue to post.