Thanks. I realize it's not my fault but had a momentarily lapse back into that damn state of powerlessness.

He didn't let me be myself. My parents didn't let me be myself, the person who I was meant to become. The abuse and neglect were atrocious. I thought i could discover myself in therapy, but he did not accept my feelings and in effect crushed my newly found autonomy.

I asked him repeatedly what happened to the therapy. He never gave me a reasonable answer, so if I want an answer, I don't have much choice other than to try to figure it out here.