Many years ago my father used to say: "You're not required to like it. You're just required to do it."
So that's what I do day-in & day-out. I've made a couple of previous attempts to remove myself from this level of reality, so to speak. (Obviously I did not succeed.)
And at this point it pretty-much just feels like more trouble than it would be worth to try again.
Fortunately I guess... or unfortunately... depending on how you look at it... I'm old enough now that I probably don't have all that many more years to worry about it. So I just let it be...