I started eating more about six months ago. It was hard, but I was able to distract myself and not force it back out. I didn’t want to be anorexic anymore. The problem is..... I’ve gained weight. I was okay at first but someone started pointed it out all the time, and now it’s all I can think about.

Sooo, I started not eating again. I’m not losing it as fast as before though. I’m getting dizzy and feeling exhausted faster, and not losing the weight. My weight is really upsetting to me lately and I’m not sure what to do. Especially because I don’t know if I’m still considered skinny or not. My family doesn’t give clear answer, or gets mad.

I know it shouldn’t matter what I look like, but it does, and I don’t know what to do because I’m afraid. I know if I don’t see a difference just cutting back a little I’m going to go to the extreme. I just feel so alone. I don’t know what to do.