I had a conversation yesterday with a relative who actually asked if I minded being called a girl. It got me thinking. Why don't I care more? Should I?
I had the thought: "It's just another thing people don't know about me." Because I am very shy, and don't really reveal a lot about myself to people. I think I carry a lot of shame about myself from earlier in my life.
I don't want to resign myself to not caring how people see me. Or rather, if people see me. That's such a lonely existence.
I feel like I have to change my personality and hobbies to be 'normal' before I can really let people see me. I don't want to feel like that. That's nonsense. I want to feel good enough as I am. But how do I get there?