I hear you as you list your symptoms. SZA crept up on me and then burst out as full-formed voices. Things went downhill from there. I have tried a number of drugs, with limited success; currently I am on olanzapine, which seems to be reducing some of the worst symptoms. My psychiatrist seems to think that with the right medicine I can get rid of all the symptoms, but I've been sick for 12 years now, and sometimes it's better and sometimes it's worse. Good luck to you as you fight your illness, and I hope you get rid of it completely.