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Default Sep 02, 2018 at 06:48 PM
 
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Originally Posted by Jaredlu View Post
Never heard of that form of OCD, but I do some things that I think fit the description.

For me the only way to truly abolish ocd induced fear is through "higher power", i.e something that's above me, because if things rely on me, all the bad things will become real (in my head). I count everything - steps, clock ticks, number of times I touch something, even cars on the road. The count has to fall on "lucky numbers" and every person in my life has a number which corresponds to an emotion. And when I look at that person, I have to think of the number for good luck and protection. It sounds so crazy when I put it into writing...

I understand how hellish it feels to live with what you've described, because I do it, too. But you know what? You don't sound "crazy" - you sound imaginative and very intelligent. It is highly likely that your natural intelligence simply took a bit of a wrong turn with regard to neurochemistry.
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