I’m so sorry this happened to add complicated layers to an already difficult experience.
I can imagine a child being unsettled contemplating her parent’s vulnerabilities, but again am sorry her processing had to add to your pain.
Since we’re conditioned to respect authority, it’s easy to be hoodwinked by unscrupulous ones. I certainly was bullied, allowed therapists to pretend to know me clairvoyantly and infantilze me.
I’ve read regretful accounts from guests on Dr. Phil. Perhaps there are other ways of telling your story.