Hey there, I can really relate to this post. I had my top surgery consultation and I'm still looking into other surgeons. I want to get top surgery so badly but I spoke to a friend and told him, "What are the odds of finding someone who will love me and my body?" and I often wonder if people will think my body is "weird". But I've realized that, as long as we're happy, that's the most important thing.

I think we all think of top surgery as the end all be all cure, but we still have work to do after that, you know? We have a lot of mental and emotional work to do. After the surgery, we may still have doubts and even sadness, but in the long run we'll be okay.

If it's something you really want, truly think it over, speak to a therapist (because, if you decide to do this, you'll need a letter from them), and see where you would like to go with this. But make sure you make a decision that will make you happy and allow you to live as authentically as possible. Good luck!