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chris87
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Default Sep 18, 2018 at 03:07 AM
 
This is my first time posting here, and I was hoping to get some input. I've been to multiple psychiatrists, and I've had so many different labels thrown at me (ADHD, OCD, Social Anxiety, ASD/AD, Depression, etc.). I feel like I have a bunch of varying/overlapping issues and no clear understanding of how certain symptoms correspond to a particular disorder. One thing that I often read about with ASD/Asperger's is a dislike for change. I never really thought that this issue applied to me, but now I'm wondering if I just never thought about it correctly.

This probably sounds ridiculous, but one example is the layout of my wallet. Everything has to be kept in the same position, and I can't handle any changes. If I move my license to a different slot, it will really stress me out. I feel like any modifications are out of the question. It's not worth it for me to even try, because it will just make me upset.

Another example would be something as silly as my browser layout (ie. Chrome). I came into work one morning, and I felt like something was different. I was pretty sure that my bookmarks bar hadn't previously been showing and now it was. I couldn't stop fretting about it and wasted time trying to find a browser screenshot from an earlier time. I know it doesn't matter, but my brain just wouldn't let it go. What could have ended up being a good day was derailed by something so trivial.

I could really apply this to all sorts of situations. One of my coworkers once borrowed my chair while I was out of the office. That would normally have been fine, but the person readjusted my chair configuration, and it made me so anxious. Similarly, I can't even move the seat settings in my car (from when I originally set them). It will make me stressed out, and I'll be thinking nonstop about how the new settings are different from what I previously had.

I don't have this problem with everything, so I'm not sure why certain things trigger it.

Does this make sense to anyone? Can anybody relate?
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