I've had anorexia since I was 10, so I feel your pain. I turn 20 in 7 days. I know it isn't 14 years but I've been in and out of therapy since I was 17. I go into therapy, seemingly get better quite fast, quit therapy, and relapse. I never seem to learn that I'll relapse. I almost died when I was 16. Feeling like a victim of your mind sucks, because people think you can control it but it's not that easy and I know it, so I'm here for you.