Hi, Só leigheas. No you're not weak, as Mickey said. It really is mental illness. Very sorry you're having to go through all those things as well. ((((Hugs!))))

So, for all the years of training and learning and insights in psychology, that's all the pdoc can tell you? You're obviously struggling, and I wish I knew the answers, but surely the pdoc must have some better tricks up his sleeve? Ask them for everything they have in regards to stopping these intrusive thoughts and impulses. Ask them for a list of all the techniques and recommendations into making it stop, so you can go through and try them. I wonder if such a list even exists? It must do. Hang in there and stay strong Só leigheas.