Dear T,
Should I find a grief therapist? Or should I just stick it out on my own? I think these feelings are probably normal, and I'll probably be okay on my own. But sometimes it hurts so much, and I just want some help. I do feel that grief is a private thing, something I should endure alone.
I love you and miss you.
ETA: I also don't want anyone else to intrude on our relationship, and I feel like any other T, at this point, would be intruding (except your friend, but he can't see me for totally legitimate reasons).