I hear what you're saying. After my ex and I broke up I binged hard for quite awhile. It was until I met my current that I slowly sobered up (been sober 8 mo. now) and all this emotional backlog has come rushing back, I feel like I'm in the midsts of my darkest days as a teenager and its driving me and everyone around me bloody crazy! My advice, get a Therapist. Write it down. Do anything you need to do to channel those thoughts into something positive.