Mogwai -
I'm with TeaVicar on this one. What is there to be ashamed or embarrassed of? I think it's going to turn out to be amazingly helpful. I hope you can find a way to share all of it with your T. There's SO MUCH power in what your wrote.

I'm sitting here thinking about how it would feel for me to express this to my T...Is there a way to fully share this in a different way? I have often drawn pictures to share with my T, and sometimes I email them so that I kind of avoid the initial shock. It really takes the edge off shame for me. A poem? You can invent some pretty direct metaphors. You do you the best way that you can.

I just wanted to say that nothing you wrote seems strange at all. It actually seems pretty amazing.
-P