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Originally Posted by chrisinmd
ust joined today. Glad to be among like minded people.
What brought me here today is I have been having issues dealing with bullying when I was in school and for a little bit after into my early 20's. 40 years old now so I don't feel this should be bothering me anymore. Not currently being abused or bullied in any way.
Anyway I was bullied like I said and I feel very guilty and ashamed of myself for not standing up for myself and preventing it from happening. My father and others told me to just fight back but I could not bring myself to do it. I feel like a complete coward.
I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety disorder in my mid 20's. So I know that was a big reason I was not able to stand up for myself. I was very anxious socially before the bullying started so it didn't cause the anxiety but im sure made it worse.
Im having intrusive thoughts about this and like I said Im 40 not and this has been over for almost 20 years. Cant anyone relate?
I guess what makes me feel guilty is I could have stopped it. Im a healthy male physically so I should have done something. Not a child who is beaten or a wife who is being abused. Anyway don't feel like much of a man.
Anyway any thought that can help or anyone that can relate?
Thanks for listening
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I can totally relate to this! I was abused physically by my younger sister and I had a hard time standing up to her. She beat me up regularly and bullied me daily. I felt very inadequate growing up as a boy and ended up having such a low confidence as the result of her abuse. I was bullied all the time at school, including by younger kids as I was an easy target. I still think about it and feel very ashamed about it. People’s reaction was that I should stand up and shouldn’t be such a sissy, which made it worse for me.